Last night I laid down with my momma for a little bit just to talk to her. We sent dad fishing so it was just us and Austin in the house. I told her it’s crazy to think that I have cancer. You hear about different teenagers having cancer and how it affects their lives but when it hits you it seems to be so much different. It does not seem real and I feel like I will wake up and it will all be gone when in reality it has yet to all start.
This past week was very challenging yet amazing at the same time. Meeting with all the different doctors and learning more about my diagnoses has helped me cope a little better with what all is about to happen. In a way, it still does not seem real but I think when treatments get going and everything settles down it will all sink in, slowly I hope. There is still such a huge decision in my way and that is whether I want to keep my normal looking leg and have other risk factors that come along with it, or have the rotationplasty done and worry about the cosmetic side of things. I am the type of person that makes a decision and wants it done then, so this is teaching me a lot about patience and guidance. God has a plan and this is one of those times that I really need His lead.
This week coming up will not be very exciting. I will start having test and scans on Tuesday that will lead into the beginning of next week. Tuesday I will have a contrasting CT scan on my chest and an eco-cardiogram. One of the chemos I will be having can affect my heart so from here on out I will have to be followed by a cardiologist. ( It would be awesome if my best friend Dallas continues on wanting to be a cardiologist!) Wednesday until next week I have a follow-up appointments with the fertility doctor to hopefully get all of that finished with. Wednesday evening some of my girl friends will be coming up for my wig shopping “party”.
By the end of next week around Thursday or Friday March 24 or 25th I should have my port put in. They will go ahead and admit me after that and start chemo. This first round will be 2 to 3 nights in the hospital that way they can monitor my counts and hydration levels. They said I will feel bad for about a week after and then they my counts will start to come up and thats about the time I’ll have my next round of chemo.
Enough about cancer this week has been amazing. It was a great relaxing weekend since I have been diagnosed. It seems as if the world has been just spinning and spinning with no time to catch up. Today my Daddy took Mom Austin and I out of the boat for a little bit. It was great getting to be on the water and relaxing before everything starts up again.
Thank you all again so much for the prayers and comments to my blog and things on Facebook. The power of prayer is trulying incrediable and I can’t thank yall all enough for them.
“Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; But a women who fears the Lord is to be praised.”