Hello everyone, I just finished my first round of month two of three chemo treatments. For some reason this treatment makes me more exhausted then the 5 day one. Other that being tired and nauseous I have been great. This past week after my 5 day treatment I felt the best I had felt yet (which was a huge surprise to everyone). I had blood work two times last week and my counts were great both times. They had dropped some which is normal but nothing they were too concerned about. I did ask the doctor and they said to be prepared to have them drop because the more chemo treatments I have the more my bone marrow and cells will be effected, but we will continue to pray and ask God to keep me healthy while knowing anything is possible at this point.
On a positive note I also got to go out one night and live somewhat of a normal teenage life. Sydney and I had a spontaneous girls night out to Brewsters Street to see the Bart Crow Band! It was awesome and made me feel “normal”, if that makes sense.
Now this all being said, over these past 3 weeks it has also been quite difficult for me. Everyone and every doctor explained to me that once you lose your hair it all becomes real. People begin to ask questions, stare, and realize that your actually sick. With that it also made it become a reality to myself. No, I don’t feel bad or sick but it’s difficult to look in the mirror and think of myself as the normal olé Jillian. This is where my amazing support group comes in handy. Each and everyone of them remind me daily how beautiful I am inside and out. They continue to remind me it’s ok to not have hair and to keep my smile upon my face. It has truly blown me away as to how far a smile can take someone. Yes there are times I cry and break down but that’s part of the copeing process.
That is one of the messages I’d like to spread with this post. If anyone who is following my journey has a family member, friend, or even see a women with no hair or who looks like their battling a hardship I challenge you to remind them how beautiful they are! Also don’t hesitate to smile at them — I promise a simple smile will go a LONG way.
Now for those of you following my journey and are going through something similar remember you are beautiful. God made you beautiful no matter what. Yes, it might be hard to understand and you may ask God why me, or why do I have to lose my eyebrows, eyelashes, hair and that’s when I ask you to remember He loves you more than anything and knew you were beautiful and strong enough to handle something like this. Yes, it may feel like a life time and that’s ok – remember just to pray and thank Him for each and every day and for helping you get through all the obstacles He has placed in your way.
Proverbs 31:30 states,
“Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeing; but a women who fears the LORD is to be praised.”
Remember Bald is truly BEAUTUFIL! 💪🏼
With Much Love,
Also I have set up an email if anyone has any questions they don’t want to ask on here or would just like to talk please email me at firstname.lastname@example.org