Hey everyone, sorry it’s been a little while since my last post. I wish I could say this treatment is / was as easy as the last two but this one has definitely kicked my butt, mainly nausea and exhaustion! On a positive note, I just finished my last dose of chemo for my 5 day round! PRAISE GOD!!
Last week, this weekend, and this week has been full of wonderful people and such positive vibes. Last week my counts were great and my Doctor let me go stay a night at TLU. It felt amazing to be surrounded by my “school family” again and see everyone smile as I walked down the sidewalks, into the ASC and our cafeteria!
When I visited school I still had my crazy hair and one boy asked me what the reason was. On a side note I have been practicing how to tell people I have bone cancer because it’s kinda shocking. (Haha) So I sat there for a second and explained to him that I will be losing it soon because I had to start chemo. He looked at me so puzzled and asked what the chemo was for so I then explained to him, I have a rare form of bone cancer. His next question almost put me to tears. He asked, ” How can you have such a big smile on your face while going through something like this?” It shocked me to have someone ask that but it’s such a true question! I explained to him that I feel blessed as to where I’m at in life, yes this is very difficult but there are definitely people out there who are facing more difficult problems than I am. When I said that he kinda giggled then had a complete straight face and said, “You know that’s true, they’re dead.” My eyes were probably bigger than my face at this point! I was stuck on what to say next.
I completely understand that we all have our own way of coping with great battles and mine just happenes to be with a big smile and positive attitude! (Yes there are times where I break down and cry but I know that is not what’s going to get me to where I need to be in life) I just sat there with him and explained to him I am a positive person and I feel like God has prepared me for something this hard all my life. I could tell he was a very reserved young man but my goal was to hopefully get him to understand that God has a bigger and better plan in the end.
I also feel that God doesn’t give us these battles as a punishment but I feel they are lessons in life. Many times we ask Him, “why me why me?” Instead of taking a second to thank Him for making us stronger. He knows exactly what we need when we need it even if it makes no sense at all and that is why He is such an amazing God.
Okay, off of my soap box now I want to thank everyone again for all the support, visits, prayers, love, flowers, and gifts. They are all very appreciated and its with y’alls help that I keep my smile on my face!
A huge thank you to Austin, Kaci, Mercedes, Colin for spending y’alls weekend with me. I love y’all guys so much and couldn’t have asked for better college / life long best friends. Sydney thank you for staying with me on my emotional night as everything really set in and Baileigh, Dallas, Dana and Andy for surprising me and hanging out with me. (Hehe) and a huge thank you to all those who I haven’t mentioned by name that came to visit! You all made this fight go by faster and so much easier for me, I loved them all!
As everyone continues to follow my journey I hope and pray this message is one that will stick with all of you. I truly believe it helps! No drug can beat Laughter and Love!
“She is clothed in strength and dignity and she laughs without fear of the future”
P.s. If you’d like to buy a shirt to support my journey (wheelchair and prosthesis expenses) you can go to www.booster.com/jilliansleap