Only 6 Hours ’til Go Time!

It’s 11:07 and I’m laying here in the hotel bed with momma and Kaci! Kac and I are watching How to be Single and moms rubbing my legs. Dad is in his bed almost asleep… Even though I have a strong feeling there won’t be much sleeping in this room nor in my grandparents room where my bubba is staying!

Today / night was amazing and I feel at peace with whatever God throws at me tomorrow. I know anything can happen but I have a strong feeling God knows how excited I am for 7/7 and how many prayer requests that have been sent His way for me that there’s no other day! I am definitely preparing for the worst (no surgery tomorrow) but expecting the best!

This evening after doctor appointments my family and Austins family met at the zoo for one last outing! I have been begging my parents to go since we started this journey and it finally happened! Yes it was extremely hot, but I had a blast! I got to see my loves….ELEPHANTS!!!!  There’s just something about those cuties.

After the Zoo we had a family dinner at one of my favorite restaurants, Torchy’s Tacos, with my grandparents, aunt and cousin, Pastor Jason, one of moms best friends Sheri and Austins family. I love having almost everyone together but it was even better after when we came back to the hotel and had communion. Pastor Jason gave a short verse and sermon and we all prayed and gathered around for communion. That put the Cherry on top of everything. I felt a wave of relief rush over me and knew that no matter what God is with me.

I have known but this journey has confirmed that God does not do things to harm us. I know I’ve blogged before about us asking Him why me and I feel like before this big day I need to talk about it again. There has definitely been so many times where I want to ask him why me. “Why did I get chosen as the “lucky” one to win the stupid cancer lottery?” “Why do I have to lose my hair, eyebrows and eye lashes?” “Better yes WHY WHY WHY do I have to lose my leg!!??” Me and this left leg have been through so much and I don’t understand, but there is one thing I can tell you. This whole situation has done nothing but strengthen my relationship with my family, friends and the Lord. Yes it’s so easy to ask him why me but you know what, I’ve noticed it’s so much easier for me to ask Him why for all these other people I have seen / met throughout this journey! I feel like so many people don’t realize how blessed I am to lose JUST my leg. I have been questioned so many times if this is my only option and my answer is the same every time! NO, this is not my only option but I want to have a “normal” life, play volleyball again, and hopefully one day be able to chase my children around! To keep a normal leg I would not have any of those options.

By being blessed I mean I will hopefully be done with all this in about 6 months and then on the road to recovery, getting my prosthesis and getting back to school and on the volleyball court! There are so many kids I have met that are just praying to see another day! When your put on my position and comprehend exactly how those kids feel it makes you really understand. I pray that no one will ever have to go though this and pray they never have to comprehend how this feels because it’s not fun.

I have truly made the best out of everything God has thrown at me along this journey and I give much credit to my family and friends for that! They remind me its ok to laugh and joke about my future. Some jokes like my dads favorites, “Now we can go to half price nails and shoes.” Most people look at us when he says that but as crazy as it sounds I LOVE when we joke about this stuff. This is my new life and I gotta make the best out of it. No more “Why Me?” instead I will and want to ask y’all to Thank him! Thank him for waking you up each morning and allowing you to lay your head down at night. Never take life for granted because there is not a day promised. God has a huge plan for each and everyone of us and we just need to go along for the ride.

Thank you everyone for all the text, calls, Facebook messages, Instagram post, Facebook post…. EVERYTHING. They help me and encourage me to continue to shine!

Psalm 76:23

“My heart and my flesh may fail but God remains the strength of my heart and my portion forever..”

Much Love ❤️

Jillian K

Family means EVERYTHING❤️

Family means EVERYTHING❤️

Leaving sweet Olive Ewe was seriously the hardest! 😭

Leaving sweet Olive Ewe was seriously the hardest! 😭

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So blessed to have this sweet boy by my side! 💜

So blessed to have this sweet boy by my side! 💜

17 Comments

  1. Heather

    Praying for you Jillian! I have been thinking about you so much since I first got the chance to meet you. We will have you in our hearts and will be sure to honor you during the Rock off Cancer Fashion Show. I also just got the videos for the event and you did great. I will be sure to send the final copy your way. I know you will really enjoy watching them. <3 I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers. You are strong and you got this!!

  2. Kim Williams

    it has been remarkably to follow you through your journey. You are such a blessing and wish we were closer so Gracie and Faith could be with you more often. I am praying for you, your family and your medical team. You will rock this just like you have everything else. Love you and see you soon.

  3. Nikkirose Angeles

    Good morning sweet angel. I just finished reading your post. Thank you for giving me a love filled start to my morning. I’ve been thinking of you a lot and been praying for speedy recovery. My love and hugs to you and your family always.

  4. Heather Anderson

    Saying lotsa prayers that you get to have the surgery today on 7/7. Wearing my Jillian’s Leap t-shirt. There are Christians everywhere praying for you even though they may not know you; they see our FB posts and t-shirts, ask questions, then add you to their prayer list. 🙂 God is with you.

  5. Gloria Ruiz-Rodriguez

    May the Lord place his healing hands upon the surgeon’s and guide him with the knowledge and ability to perform a successful surgery. May the Lord continue to comfort you and your family through it all, and grant you a complete recovery. I don’t know you personally, but I too was from Sinton. I ‘ve also walked through the journey of cancer with my 2 brothers and my dad.
    Sincerely,
    Gloria Ruiz-Rodriguez

  6. Kim Boone

    Jillian you amaze me and everyone that knows you. The most wonderful thing is that you don’t even have to speak for others to know how much you love Jesus……your beautiful smile and actions say it all. The rest of this journey is not going to be easy and it’s ok to get frustrated, but keep your eyes on Jesus and the cross and let Him carry you through. Continuous prayers for you, your family and all you come into contact with. Praying! God has a plan for you and it’s a perfect one

  7. Marce Bluntzer

    Praying for you today kiddo!! You are always in our prayers always. Love to you and your wonderful family!!

  8. Kay Buscemi

    Jillian, I am praying for you as I write this. My prayers are for the skillful surgeon, the wonderful nurses, the techs, all of the OR personnel who will come in contact with you today. As in Macbeth….out, out, damned spot! Pray without ceasing! Your story had already impacted so many. ….it will continue to do so!

  9. Kathy Rios

    So glad you decided to stay up and share what was on your heart last night. We are all so connected because ” friends are friends forever if the Lord is the Lord of them!” (old Michael W. Smith song) That’s how I feel about you and your family. I know we haven’t seen each other in a long time; but you and you family have a special place in my spirit. Loved having you and Trent in Confirmation and Youth Group. You are certain of one thing and that is God is in control and we are all trusting in that truth. You are greatly loved and prayers abound this day and for the days to come. Love you!!

  10. nancy

    hugs darling. i still have a cold drink in the refridgerator anytime. 🤓. love you and your family. here for you. 💛💝🏐🌧🌞🐘🐖🐮👩‍❤️‍👩

  11. Amy Atkinson

    Jillian, my family is praying for you. We have followed your journey and are amazed at your strength and faith. God will continue to do amazing things with your life and you will be such an inspiration for many. Who knows… Maybe even see you back up on a roof someday! Kaitlyn my daughter remembers delivering watermelon and squirting water guns at all of you with your mom one sea city day. She also plays volleyball and basketball and will be entering high school next year. and she said “wow mom, I can’t believe she is losing her leg and won’t be able to play anymore.” I said “oh no! She will!!” I explained to her that you would be able to get back out there with a prosthetic leg and we discussed the power of prayer and persevereance and how God can do so many amazing things. If you believe in him and yourself. You do! I am so proud of you! Many prayers for you, your Drs, and your family and for a successful surgery. God is with you. 💓 Amy Atkinson

  12. Annette Moreno

    Prayers for you and your family Jillian.. May God Bless you sweetie. You are in my thoughts and prayers..

  13. Ali Kimura

    Praying for you right now sweet girl! You are such a warrior in so many ways. I am beyond honored to know you and your family, and what a privilege it is to witness your strength and faith. I can’t wait to hear how everything goes today. And see you and Olive back in SA soon! 🙂

  14. Isabelle Kemp

    Sweet Jilly.. You have been in my thoughts and prayers everyday.. Today is the day you will start a new journey, you are an inspiration. You are truly a special person. Praying for you and your family through the surgery. Love You..

  15. Jillian, you are quite the young woman! You have praying folks up here in the Panhandle. Your optimism, enthusiasm, spirit – they are all flowing from the fountain of your faith in God. It’s clear with every word you type and every picture you post. Don’t let go of it. God’s prepared you with your friends, family, pastor, and all the other support – and He has obviously ignited a faith in you that will see you through all of this era of your life, and the one you write about that includes chasing your kids around. Peace and love and continued prayers for healing and everything that goes with it.

  16. Carmel

    May God carry you through your journey until you are able to walk again with Him beside you every step of the way beautiful Jillian. You and your family are in our prayers.

  17. Edward Salazar

    Jillian your faith is so impressive! You continue to be in my prayers! Hoping that all goes a well as can be. You are truly blessed with a great family. May God place his healing hands on you, take care. Sincerely

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